Living with a Chameleon

No matter how hard I try to control everything I need to do to keep this chameleon at bay, it defies all logic, remains mysterious & surprises me at every turn. In 24 years, there's never been a way of knowing what will bring it on, despite having all the knowledge about it. When I think it's going to start, it doesn't & when I expect that everything's just right, it breaks my trust in my instinct. I have studied this thing for many years, written & published a book from the perspective of a sufferer. I sold 489 copies worldwide & only have 11 books left, which I will keep. At 74 years of age, I fear a time when I might be bedridden & symptoms might not be medically managed well, having to lie there and be unable to walk. This is my story, although only one page out of hundreds.
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